***news*** 01/09/2012--insurance FINALLY approved the surgery! march 7th bitches! San Francisco here I come!

***news***10/09/2011--i've lost my job. I'm still keepign my insurence through cobra so once i have a surgery date it'll still be on. I'm not sure whats going to happen in terms of work and such at this point. I've toyed with the idea of escorting in the interm...i mean if all i'm getting is sex..some okay some not so...i might as well get paid right? I've no idea though. Until then i'll just keep trucking. as a reminder if you'd like to help out i've a web page mikaelavalentine(dot)weebly(dot)com, there is no www on it. You can keep up to date with whats up in my life. I even started a blog there. Thanks for keeping up to date***/news***

***news***my work covers SRS surgery so i'm planning on the snip and tuck (aka SRS) in feburary of 2012. If you'd like to support my journey emotionally or financially you can visit http://mikaelavalentine.weebly.com San Francisco here i come!!**** I've also made a "group" here http://www.adultspace.com/group_view-group_id-35389.htm l join and show your support, discuss transition and what you think about gender reassignment surgery!*****

"Do not say "I have found the truth", but rather "I have found a truth"" from the prophet, by kahlil gibran. For me, that is what my journey is all about, finding my truth. I'll admit that I've agonized emotionally over trying to assimilate myself to someone else's truth, only to find that I am somewhat lacking. Thats a lesson in and of itself though. I am not here to fulfill your desires and to be who you wish me to be. As to my Journey, i've been on hormones since December of '05. The effects are slow but nice. Skin texture change, some lessing of body hair (thank the lord!), breast growth (yay for boobies, i'm working on a C cup!!), and redistribution of body fat (to give me more feminine curves ). Emotionally, I've been coming to terms with myself since 2003 or so, and while I've figured out a lot about me, I realize I've still much to learn. Sexually speaking, I'm a big ole bottom, which means, for those that might question it, that I dont stick my parts inside yours (okay maybe fingers ), and i also dont like to receive oral stimulation of 'those parts'. You see i'm not entirly comfortable with my "unfeminine boy parts", or the social pressures to use it. Though we do have a working relationship of sorts. I've started hair removal, but it will be a long process as well. i've got lots. I dont live full time, which means i dont present myself as a woman in my everyday life. It's something I will do, but i'm not quite at that point yet...or perhaps i'm just scared and feeling vulnerable...perhaps both. and who knows i may never present in a way that makes you feel comfortable. I may never be the woman of your fantasies! I"m just trying to be me. My relationship of almost 4 years has ended.